Fill Your Own Glass

If you've ever wondered what it feels like to feel completely empty... I can enlighten you to one thing - you're lucky. While I firmly believe that all of the ups and downs of emotions that life throws at us are vital to our growth and maturity, the feeling of great emptiness is one that I truly dread. I believe that this feeling (or lack there of) stems from actually feeling too much. This is a numbing experience... feeling so much that you don't feel anything at all.
When I personally feel empty, it tends to come from the second worst feeling one can experience - feeling unwanted. Knowing that you're not wanted by someone who you long to talk to, take care of, love, is very difficult. All you want to do is see them and be near them but you know that you aren't just not cared about, but specifically would rather not be seen or heard. This leads to thinking. Thinking that you're not good enough. Thinking about what more you could possibly offer to this person to make them change their mind. Thinking about how it's not fair that it's possible for love to not be reciprocated. Then the emptiness creeps in. It comes in slow but it comes in hard. With every second that passes it starts to consume you until you're left staring into space not feeling a single thing. Not even sadness. Not even anger. You feel nothing. You are a body and that is all. Now, we all know this feeling doesn't last forever. But there's nothing like it.
The question from here on out is, how do you come back from it? This feeling can control you. How are you going to rise above it? The answer is simple: try.
Think about the things that you love. Think about how you smile, how you laugh. Think about all the times you've conquered. Consume yourself in a book. Consume yourself in a movie you've seen a million times but can still make you feel something. Realize and believe that this feeling of not feeling a thing will not last forever. Look in the mirror and tell yourself you're worth it - and believe it. Smile! Because smiling is scientifically proven to make you happier - and simply because there isn't a single smile that I've come across that wasn't beautiful and I'm convinced there never will be.


When you feel this emptiness you need to realize that its lying to you. Because you're filled. You're glass isn't half full or half empty, it's overflowing. You're eyes will light up again, as long as you don't feed the darkness.